2)I want to feel at ease with that and....and find a way, find the right way to approach it so I’ll know in which form I want to direct, how and with whom and where...

It’s the first thing I’ve tried to organise and it’s not easy. But I think I’ll have to leave part of it to chance. I can book the flight in advance, but buying the train tickets I’ll have to leave to chance, but I have to know what time it leaves. So it might turn out really hard...